I feel great! I am beginning to feel closer to my biological age - 29 years old. I can't believe I am going to be 30 in January. But, I wouldn't have it any other way. I am very happy with my life and am working on improving myself and getting over some self-created hurdles.
I am no longer afraid to park at the very end of a parking lot and walk to a store. I no longer need to worry that I won't fit into a booth at a restaurant. I look forward to each day and make an effort to look my best. I enjoy running around after Manreet and am no longer tired. I can wear clothes without trying to cover myself up head to toe in black. I just realized how much better colors suit me :-)
I am starting to come out of my long hibernation. I actually look forward to social events now.
I have wondered for a very long time why very smart people inflict so much pain to themselves, but I have yet to figure it out. Why are we so weak when it comes to food and ourselves. Why do we think it is okay to abuse our bodies, but we wouldn't harm a fly? Such is the tragedy of a very smart person who is fighting a food addiction.
Sometimes I have to do a double-take to make sure that was my image I just saw in a mirror. I no longer feel like an odd ball when I am in public. I enjoy seeing my husband giving me more attention. I sometimes still have the fat girl mentality and see an old me when I look in the mirror.
I am looking forward to the day when I will be at my "ideal" weight. Some say I will look anorexic, but I am looking forward to that day. I can't wait to start running. I am so thankful to God that he saved me from a lot more damage that could have been done when I was struck by that vehicle on January 18th. My physical therapy is going to end this week, and I can't wait for my orthopedic surgeon to release me to exercise. I haven't worked out since January 15th, and I miss it!
Sukh
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